Surf & Turf for Thanksgiving...

We are having a non-traditional Thanksgiving meal of surf & turf to celebrate my 27 pound weight loss...mmmmmmm....good....

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Laura Diamond Wise...

Balancing on ball...

After all the work I've been doing the past few months...I deserve some bragging rights.

Aretha Franklin...RESPECT...

(oo) What you want
(oo) Baby, I got
(oo) What you need
(oo) Do you know I got it?
(oo) All I'm askin'
(oo) Is for a little respect when you come home (just a little bit)
Hey baby (just a little bit) when you get home
(just a little bit) mister (just a little bit)

I ain't gonna do you wrong while you're gone
Ain't gonna do you wrong (oo) 'cause I don't wanna (oo)
All I'm askin' (oo)
Is for a little respect when you come home (just a little bit)
Baby (just a little bit) when you get home (just a little bit)
Yeah (just a little bit)

I'm about to give you all of my money
And all I'm askin' in return, honey
Is to give me my profits
When you get home (just a, just a, just a, just a)
Yeah baby (just a, just a, just a, just a)
When you get home (just a little bit)
Yeah (just a little bit)

------ instrumental break ------

Ooo, your kisses (oo)
Sweeter than honey (oo)
And guess what? (oo)
So is my money (oo)
All I want you to do (oo) for me
Is give it to me when you get home (re, re, re ,re)
Yeah baby (re, re, re ,re)
Whip it to me (respect, just a little bit)
When you get home, now (just a little bit)

R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Find out what it means to me
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Take care, TCB

Oh (sock it to me, sock it to me,
sock it to me, sock it to me)
A little respect (sock it to me, sock it to me,
sock it to me, sock it to me)
Whoa, babe (just a little bit)
A little respect (just a little bit)
I get tired (just a little bit)
Keep on tryin' (just a little bit)
You're runnin' out of foolin' (just a little bit)
And I ain't lyin' (just a little bit)
(re, re, re, re) 'spect
When you come home (re, re, re ,re)
Or you might walk in (respect, just a little bit)
And find out I'm gone (just a little bit)
I got to have (just a little bit)
A little respect (just a little bit)

“Nobody dies from lack of sex. It's lack of love we die

from.”

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This is not dedicated to anyone...I just like the song...

"Rolling In The Deep"

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in time and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

Honesty counts...

...,but, where did it go?

I'd rather lose a man to honesty, than to win him with lies.

"The Rose"

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
And you its only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give,
And the soul afraid of dyin'
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose.

I don't belong here...

Need to come up with a new blog...

This blog has taken a different turn in just the last couple of months. I had started it with the intention of helping people who have always struggled with weight, but lately I have used it to dish about my personal life...I need to come up with something else...another blog about life in general I guess....Sorry for the confusion folks...wait a minute...who I am apologizing to...I don't have any followers here....LOL!!!

I am still losing weight though...and my endurance threshold has increased by about 2% since January...Yea!!!

Licking the blood of the demon

From my cold warm lips...

Its heart I hold in my hand...

Still pounding against the flesh of my palm...

Death came too easy for this evil villain...

Not so easy for its darkened soul...

Laura Diamond Wise (c) 2011

I am clearly in a macabre mood tonight...

Licking the blood of the demon

From my cold warm lips...

Its heart I hold in my hand...

Still pounding against the flesh of my palm...

Death came too easy for this evil villain...

Not so easy for its soul...

Laura Diamond Wise (c) 2011

Still at it...

Still trying to get settled in to new place...got a few things that I still need to gather from the old house...we're getting there...I am so tired...feeling expendable...trying to get Laurance set up for tutoring, and getting settled in at the same time...it's too overwhelming...just feel like crawling into a hole, curling up going to sleep, and not waking up...lots of emotional diarrhea, not enough tissue...boy what visual that is...LOL!

Feeling expendable...shut down...shut down...shut down...

It's a good life if you let it be...
Hold to the good memories...
Discard the bad...

My mind goes back everyday...
Thinking, remembering, and a smile clears my face...
My heart is warmed by memories of love.

You do not have to believe in God to have a connection to a higher consciousness; just open and clear your mind, and you will see what is already there; has always been there. You don't have to call it God, you don't have to call it anything, just be; because IT is you, and you are IT.

Life and death should be equal and free...

Not one preserved and one feared,

But both respected and revered....

~~~Me

Moving is so frustrating...but we're almost completely out of the old place and into our new one...just a little more to go.

There is so much confusion in this world that we have created.  We are taught from a very young age, not to speak, but to listen to the voice of authority; to do as we are told.  Parents become angry when their children voice their own opinion, they tell them not to talk back.  The time that we are allotted for a lifetime on this plane, passes so quickly; one day we wake up and we realize that we're half way through our lives, and most of that time was spent working and trying to get things done in a material world that cannot be satisfied.

If there's something that I have learned about personal happiness it's that it should never depend on the approval or affection of another; that is what feeds the emotional and sexual addiction. If we are of the personality type that depends on another person for our personal happiness, then where is our personal identity? It's wrapped up in the other; therefore, you know not yourself, so how can you know another? If I can turn to me and say that I love myself as deeply as I would any other human being, then I have freed myself, and I have alleviated that other person of a huge responsibility, that of my personal happiness; now they can take care of their own happiness. Do you see what I mean?

I believe that the people we meet come into our lives for a reason. I also believe we have a choice in who we fall for; although, in some cases that may not seem true, but I believe we always have a choice, it just comes down to a yes or no. Even so, when powerful emotions are involved that choice may not seem so obvious, but we always have a choice.

As of today I have lost 26lbs...and I am surprised to say that it was pretty easy.

I am not sorry for having loved a man, just sorry that he may think I hate him for not loving me back. 

Powerful Video...

One does not have to be an atheist to appreciate what he is saying...

"Through Godless Eyes..."

Change takes time.

One drop in a moving ocean will not change the current.~~~Sandra Smith

Do I know what I want?

If I get what I want, will it be what I want when I get it?

Too much to do for one person...

I'm feeling anxious today; too much to do and too little time to do it in. Still working on that grant proposal, which is due on Friday, and seems to have stalled everything else. We still haven't learned our lines for our play, and rehearsals start next weekend, the same week we are supposed to move in to our new place. I feel like I'm doing everything on my own, I get very little help. My son is great, but he needs constant redirection. I hate feeling so alone.

One more week...

We are almost out of here...one more week before we get the keys to our new place...

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Gym...

I'm on my way to the gym; I can't stand when I get there late, but better late than never.

I love philosophy...

The key is to keep company only with people who uplift you, whose presence calls forth your best. ~ Epictetus

Remember woman power...

Married couple in their 60's are visited by a fairy who grants them both a wish. "I want to travel round the world with my darling husband" says wife, two tickets for a luxury cruise magically appear in her hand. Husband says:"Sorry but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me." Fairy waves wand and husband becomes 92 ... Moral of story - men who are ungrateful should remember fairies are female!!!. ..pass it on girls

To thrive is to live

What is sin?
Denial of the right to thrive.
~~Whitley Strieber

Time at the gym...

It was a good day at the gym. I did 30m on the treadmill, 20m on the rowing machine, 15m core, and 15m in the pool......I feel good!

My life, my self-worth, my responsibility...

I have discovered in recent weeks, that if I place my personal worth upon the approval or acceptance of another individual, be they male or female, I am setting myself up for some serious heartbreak. All attachment, whether it be on a person, place, or thing, is still emotional attachment, but if I can release that emotion and be accepting and comfortable with the current moment, regardless of the situation, I have now taken responsibility for my own self-worth. Then, and only then, will I know real happiness.

20 lbs...

As of this morning, I have lost 20lbs....rockem' sockem' I feel good.

19 lbs down...

I have now lost 19 lbs., and still counting. Yay!!!!

Exercise addiction

I'm excited to say that my exercising has gone from the point of effort to the point of addiction...YAY!!!!

Expectations

"The only person in this world you have a right to expect anything from is yourself." by Me

If there is anything in this life that I have learned, it is that the one person who will let you down the most, is the same one that will be there to save you in the end, and that person is YOU.

No appetite

I've been so focused on my move, and my stomach has been in knots for weeks. I just don't have any appetite to speak of. I have to remind myself to eat, and then it's juice, yogurt, chips. Today I forced myself to eat a sandwich, and not a very good one. I do better when Laurance is here because then I am cooking for him. I'm just not hungry.

I've lost 17 lbs...

...where did they go? If you find them, please don't send them home.

Just my thoughts...

GOD is not a person; therefore, it is fair to say that IT does not think or feel as a human would. Whatever that being is IT is vast and immeasurable, and beyond any form of real definition.IT is the universe, the galaxies, the stardust, the moon, and the sun. The atomic matter of carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, and nitrogen that make up the universe, galaxies, the stardust, the moon, and the sun are the same elements that make up human kind, and yet IT is not a person.
The sole impetus of this natural force is evolutionary, IT exists in all form of matter.

Life the Unsuspecting Captive

Life, the unsuspecting captive
Of a million dreams,
Chains of desire bind so fastly to the earth.
Seeing the attachment formed
From knowing all those things;
Being alone and at one with the joys of rebirth.

Doesn't freedom look good?
Would you go if you could?
Fear keeps you locked up for good without keys.
But do not you suppose
That you could be among those
Standing in the shadows of release?

For Life is an unsuspecting captive
Of a million dreams,
Chains of desire bind so fastly to the earth.
Seeing the attachment formed
From knowing all those things;
Being alone and at one,
Being alone and at one,
Being alone and at one,
Being alone and at one,
Being alone and at one with the joys of rebirth.

~~~~By Michael Nesmith

Monsoons

It is raining like cats and dogs outside. Laurance is up in the mountains; of course, I am worried.

Even so, I love monsoon season in Arizona, and it is in full force tonight.

Israel dig sites helps scientists understand Bible's 'bad guys'

I found this article in the Arizona Daily Star. I found it rather interesting, in as much as it provides a good nucleus for further study. I hope you all enjoy it. Just click the link:

"Israel dig sites..."

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Glad to be leaving this house...

I am excited to be getting out of this house, after 5-years I have gotten nothing accomplished with the work that needs to be done. It has been a waste of time, money, and life. Getting out of here makes me feel invigorated, but the packing...eh...not so much.

Another week of camp...

Laurance's camp counselor contacted me today saying that he wanted to stay an extra week; she was so astute that she found him a sponsor at the last minute, so if he wants to stay an extra week he can. I miss him so much, but I am so glad that he is having so much fun. I can hardly wait to hear the stories he will have.

In the meantime, I plucked the first cantaloupe from our garden today, and it is a beaut.

I hear an echo, but...

I am okay with that. Posting to an empty blog with no followers, talk about privacy. Just get to listen to my own echo.

Out with the old...

...and in with the new, but not so fast...we always tend to get rid of stuff when we move, but this time I am getting rid of things that I have had for years. It is so cathartic, but I am finding that I am more detached than I was before. Just get rid of the old stuff, and move on to clearer ground.

More weight loss...

15 lbs. down since February this year. YAY!!!!

Christopher Moore, as per Lori Moreno

Love is not something you think about, it is a state in which you dwell ~ Christopher Moore

I got this from Lori Moreno, a friend I am following on Twitter. Thank you, Lori. Love from within not without; let's face it, that is the only real love there is. I can live with that. :)

Still healing a broken heart...

I don't understand how a man can feel that he is doing a woman great favors by using her sexuality as a weapon against her; in essence, teasing her. I don't understand why a woman has to play games in order to win a mans affections. Why can't a woman just love a man? Why can't a man just appreciate that love? Why do we have to lie, bat our eyes, play hard to get? How is it that honesty has had to find its way into the dark corners of love? Why is it that love has become a game to be won?

I will keep posting to these blogs until I can get my web site up. Please stay tuned...

Laurance heads off to camp tomorrow. It's going to be a lonely week, for mom, but a great week of fun and games for him.

Hearts get broken everyday...

...then they heal, and rebuild.

Things have been moving so fast the last couple of weeks. First we decided to leave this house, and within two days we had a new place picked out, within a week I was signing the lease. We move out September 2nd.

The next 8-weeks are going to be very busy. We will be starting rehearsals for "A MidSummer Nights Dream" in mid August, for a tentative opening on September 8th. In addition to the play and the move, I've just become a member of the Tucson Roscommon Sister Cities, and I will be their unofficial grant writer. We have a dance performance with the Sister Cities group on August 28th. It is going to be a busy end to Summer. I still have to get Laurance to Kitt Peak.

Signed the lease today; move in on September 2.

We are out of here....

Broken hearts and moving are good for the waistline.

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