I am so tired...

...and bored...and frustrated...and did I mention tired.

I have spent the last few months trying to get my house in order, getting my son, Laurance, ready for middle school, since he is autistic I have more hoops to jump through than average. You can find more information about Laurance at our blog Laurance's World .

On top of all of that my computer harddrive suffered a meltdown. I did not have all of my files backed up, and I found out it is going to cost me anywhere from $500.00 to $2,700.00 to retrieve my data. Good grief I could buy a good used car for that.

Nonetheless, we are talking 5-years worth of data. Obviously, I do not have that kind of money on hand right now, not since I have purchased a house. So, my old hard drive is sitting on a shelf, and that is where it will stay until I either get the money to do the data retrieval, or until I come to terms with my loss.

As far as loss goes, I have not lost any weight. In fact, in the last month I think I have gained 3 pounds, and I had lost 5 pounds right before the holidays.

I consider it interesting how in life we never want to lose anything until it comes to weight or wait. I can't stand extra pounds anymore than I can handle a long wait in line. Let's face it both forms of weight/wait have a tendency to put our lives on hold.

I try to regard the advice of such gurus as Wayne Dyer and Marianne Williamson, when they say "live your life now; haven't you put it on hold long enough?" Clearly, it makes no sense to put my life on hold, but that is what I have been doing, and thus, I find myself waiting! Here I am wallowing in a world of wait/weight!!

I am waiting until I get my house in order and get out from underneath all of this crud and this debt of mine, which is very reminiscent of the crud hanging onto my body.

Oh, the crap I put my body through too. Pushing it through yoga & pilates and whatever other kind of exercise I can push it through, and then I punish it with a bowl of ice cream. Of course, it does not feel like punishment when I am doing it. We all enjoy a treat now and then, but I must concede that I have overdone the treats as has been evident by the recent scale entries.

Well, I guess I will continue trying and waiting through the results.